attitude adjustment
Happy New Year Everybody!!!I am SO looking forward to the brand spankin *NEW* year. 2005 has been tough for me in a lot of ways, but just when I thought it was going to start getting better, the last few months took me down to a whole new level. Between working my ass off, not working out, and then the holidays: ak! I felt like I became a big fat GROUCH! I was feeling un-motivated, un-inspired, and a bunch of other ugly not-very-willo-like feelings that were just plain bummin me out! I've known I need to do something about it, but isn't it crazy how when you're in that hole, it can feel like you'll never get out? Well, I'm happy to say, now that I've had a few days to relax* and feel like ME again, I am ready to make a change for the better! I mean, the last thing I want to be is a victim about what I've self-imposed on myself, ya know? I need to remind myself I HAVE CHOICE! I don't want to be someone who pushes people away (especially when I could use a little pulling someone towards me, if you know what I mean). I want to be a fun, open, loving person, who is thoughtful and patient and isn't afraid to take care of herself!! HERE! HERE!
*I took this entire week off and have been in this big de-stressing period and I swear, I thought it was never going to go away, but *finally* TODAY I have started to feel re-energized! I'm on the upswing! wahoo!
I usually don't like the whole New Year Resolution dealio, but this year it hit at the perfect time for me to get my shit in gear and start taking care of myself again. I won't go into all of them here, as honestly there's a bunch of stuff I'm working on for myself, but here's a few simple ones we can all relate to:
- Drink more water! I've always been a huge proponent of this, but the last few months I've noticed what a serious lack of water I'm drinking. Like we're talking hardly any at all. That's gotta stop... I'm not sayin it's gotta be some crazy 8 glasses a day regimen, just more than 1, for chris'sakes! :)
- Work out more. As I've said before, this is for my mental health more than anything. Talk about becoming a hermity un-motivated grouch... not working out was not helping me at. all. I definitely could use a little mind-body connection/balance happening and I know that working out helps me in more ways than I ever even realize. Not to mention it helps me get out of the house & *move*, considering I literally roll out of bed, turn on the computer & SIT all frickin day. Like I can't justify an hour a day? jeeshk! Anyone work out at the 24 hr fitness at the Potrero Center, and want a gym buddy? :) Don't stalk me there though, ok? Might not be the best first impression to see me with unwashed hair, no makeup & sweatin like a pig. hahhaa.
- Face my fears. I'm not sure how to sum this up, because it's a big one for me, and we can all probably relate to some area in our lives that needs some attention. Some area that you need to stop escaping from the fears around it and/or avoiding facing it and seeing it for what it really is. I feel like I have been becoming someone I don't want to be lately, and I owe it to myself and the people around me to take a good long look at that & figure it out. Gaining more balance in my life, and allowing myself to put some more structure into place, de-stressing, etc... all these things can help me become less caught up in the negative cycle in my head. Bring in more compassion, humility and empathy, etc. This area is almost the hardest to work on, because, in my efforts to improve, I have to remember it's not about perfection or getting it right. It's almost like firing the perfectionist in me because truthfully, she isn't serving me any more! So ya, I know that's a little vague, but maybe some of you can relate in some way, shape or form. Let's hear it for being willing to look at our shit & do something about it! :)
OK - my friend Holly just arrived & it's time for the first drink of the night! Let the party begin!!! Hope you all have fun tonite! HAPPY NEW YEAR! xoxoxoox
