why do i fight my emotions?
seriously, i feel like i am soo good at being intimate and loving, but so bad at dealing with my own vulnerability and insecurities. i think that's because intimacy and love is more in the present, and the present me is a fairly confident, secure person. so those feelings stem from who i am today, but insecurities and all the feelings of fear in vulnerability, all of that stirs up the past... baggage from past relationships, family, etc. ya think?dammit! relationships are so complicated. or maybe i'm just the complicated one. arg.
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addendum: the good news is, i'm willing to look at it & figure it out. one step at a time.
