craptastic.
I've been working so much that all week, starting on Tuesday, I kept waking up thinking it was Friday. So here it is, finally Friday, and I feel like I should be really stoked about that, but I'm just plum tuckered out! And I have to work tomorrow.... so it's really not even Friday yet. :*(I went out to run errands today and there's Christmas stuff everywhere, and I'm just not feeling very "in the spirit" of the holidays. Ug... today I'm just not feeling that great at all. Come to think of it, it's probably due to my lack of sleep lastnight that I'm feeling so damn fragile right now. BLAH!
I did go to the gym yesterday which was good. I need to start going again more regularly for my mental health if nothing else. I've been so frickin crabby this week! Today got me thinking about how we're almost at the New Year, and I'm so happy about that. This year has sucked in so many ways. I mean, business and friendship wise it's been pretty amazing... but personal/emotional/family/relationship wise, it's been really tough and I can only hope 2006 will bring better days. Some of the worst of this year got a tad better by June or July, but by then I'd conveniently gained a whopping 20 lbs. Yay for me!
Lately I've been just letting myself not freak out about the working out - mostly because I made an active decision to take on these 2 new projects and I knew it would make my life crazy for about 2 months, so I'm trying not to freak out on myself. I get a LOT done and I'm a little tired of how much I hear myself not recognize that & instead just push myself even harder. The empowered 30 year old bitch inside of me says "Get of my back! I am doing the best I can!".
Anyway, I'm just venting. I actually need to head off to a client's holiday party (weeeee!!). Normally in this state of mind I would bail, but I think it'll be good for me to get out of the house & talk to people instead of being holed up in my house like I am so often. Plus, I love this client and actually look forward to hanging out with their team. Plus, there will be drinks, and boy do I need one of those!!!
Happy Friday, everyone.
