dreams
I didn't sleep very well lastnight (stuffed up nose), so I woke up a lot and it led me to have a bunch of crazy dreams. A few of them have been haunting me all day, so in effort to get them out of my head, here they are:In one of my dreams someone was telling me I needed to wear foundation every day. I told them I realized I probably should, but I don't want to! I think foundation is evil because if you wear it all the time, then your face not only doesn't look as good to you w/o it, but your skin tone gets affected and therefore you look even worse! Or at least that's what I think anyway, therefore I try to avoid it and go au natural. So anyway, in my dream I remember having to smear this stuff all over my face and it wouldn't rub in. All the while all I could think about was how sad it was that the next time I had a lover they would have to wake up to my clean, non-foundation-covered-up, but very blotchy skin. hahhaa
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I was having dinner with a bunch of strangers in some remote mountain restaurant. I especially liked one of the ladies, though, she reminded me of Kathy Bates. Friendly, mature woman with a wry sense of humor and doesn't take shit. We made friends and I think she offered to let me stay at her house or something.
After awhile I got tired so I put my earplugs in, curled up under a blanket and tried to go to sleep, but I think I farted and they all heard it (but I didn't because I had my earplugs in haha!). When I opened my eyes they were all kind of giggling. I felt embarrassed but I looked at my Kathy Bates-ish friend and she looked at me like, "who gives a shit?" and I felt better. hahaa
Once we tried to leave the restaurant we quickly realized we were totally snowed in. Trying to get out of the parking lot, tons of cars were already stuck, blocking the exit. So I went around to exit through the entrance, nervous that those "do not back up" spikes would puncture my tires going the other way, but I felt compelled to try to get out - so I went for it & luckily the snow had covered them up enough.
When I got out to the road I realized all of the cars coming from each way were slipping and sliding all over the place. Somehow I managed to dodge a few sliding cars, but it quickly got VERY scary as there was a hill coming up, and the next car that I saw come up and over it was a HUGE semi-truck!!! The truck, just like every other car on the road, was coming right at me and started jack-knifing, and then almost tipping over. Oddly enough it somehow started flipping and completely missed me! Several scenes happened like this, threatening my life every single time. Randomly at one point Misty was in the car with me, and both of us basically screamed "I guess this is it!", preparing ourselves to die in that moment. But we didn't!
Somehow I got out of every super scary near death experience, and with the roads absolutely un-driveable and many crashed cars & trucks mounting up, I decided to get out of my car & walk the rest of the way. Apparently just up & over the hill was "East New York". I started walking and soon there were hoards of us trudging through the snow. It was such a disaster that it was all over the news so they put us up in this luxury hotel on the water. (Actually, it was so hot that we all just slept by the pool! hahaa!) Once we got there and settled into our lawn chairs, I was really tired. Sarah M. was with me, talking on her cell phone telling someone about our journey. While I was dozing off I confirmed with Sarah that we had been walking for 3 whole days. No wonder I was so tired!!
After sleeping for a bit I woke up to take a swim. While swimming I remember almost losing hold of my sunglasses and then realizing I was actually swimming in a part of the ocean, so if I let them go they'd be lost forever. And seeing as how I was somewhat of a refugee for an unforseen amount of time, I felt like I had to carefully watch over all of my possessions. It was then I realized I'd left my laptop in my car up in the mountains. So all I could think about was how all of those cars were probably getting looted, or crashed into and destroyed. I was really sad over this and mad at myself for not bringing my laptop with me on the journey. Going over all the possible things I *should* have done. Solutions as simple as taking it out of it's own case and putting it in the bag that I *did* bring with me, to more extreme solutions for keeping it safe in my car, like slicing open a part of my seat to hide it within the cushions.
While I was swimming my friend Brian jumped in to swim with me and commented something about me having "sexy legs", and I remember thinking "phew, I'm so glad I just shaved them!" hahaa. Then a few more people jumped in, and I realized a lot of the people around me were people I knew from High School. Completely random people. My mind was heavy with thoughts while I was swimming and so after awhile I got out. I kept thinking about how I was going to get home, why that felt so far away and just how oddly stagnant it felt to be so displaced. (total hurricane katrina feelings, I think).
There was one other one, something about someone, or some part of me bleeding and it wouldn't stop.
Weird, stressful dreams!
