brighter & brighter
I'm completely feeling normal this week - woohoo! But one step better is that I'm really feeling *great*, inside & out. Last week was so insane and stressful (not to mention snotty!) and this week I feel like a new woman!I got some news yesterday that was a hard hit... news that is inevitable in any breakup... the ex has a new gf! gulp! It's always hard to hear that the first time, but it was bound to happen with one of us.
When I first heard the news, I got a lump in my throat the size of Kentucky, and immediately had to IM Misty. She's awesome... and talking it out a little with her helped *so* much. Truly, all the sadness is just mourning the loss of such a beautiful part of my life with a man that I loved so much. I know we made a decision - both of us made a choice - and it's been 4 months now, and we're both moving on.
I also know that it hasn't been easy for either of us. Especially this whole 'moving on' stuff. Comparing each new candidate to the amazing connection he & I had last year, and all of our awesome memories together... it's a hard spot to fill, that's for sure. But in the end I want him to be happy.. and if she can honor some of the things I couldn't, then good for them both. I just want him to be happy, because he deserves it! He's really an amazing guy... and I miss him. xoxo
:::
The great news is that I feel so happy that I know who I am. I am so ready for my 30th birthday this year, as life just gets better and better! I know who I am, and what I want in a relationship, and am clear that although I want to be in a relationship, I'm not the type of girl who needs one to make myself feel whole. I feel great about being independent and right now the world is my oyster!! wooohoooo!!!
btw - I don't usually read horoscopes, but hez (ya, hottie bass player!) linked to this astrology site and I happened to go check out my horoscope for this month, and it is on fire!! aww yaa, bring it ON April!!! :)
:::
This month is insanely busy with all the fantastic work I have right now! I know it sounds crazy to be so excited about work - but truly I love what I do so much and feel so fortunate to have such a successful business!
Doing my end of year taxes was really awesome, because it officially wrapped my first full fiscal year of doing business for myself, so I got to see from jan 1 to dec 31 what I made and I'm proud to say I am making what I was at my former job! But really even more than that considering I get to write so much off. Not to mention how awesome it is to work for myself, choose my clients (who are all so great and that makes it so rewarding!), all out of the comfort of my sunny little home with my fuzzy cuddly kitty. Life is so good!
And the great part of that, too, is that I pretty much always have an illustration job going of some kind, which has been so incredible. The last couple of which aren't even on my site - then again _none_ of the work I've done in 1.5 years on my own is in my portfolio on my site! Unbelievable! Luckily the work keeps flowin in, almost faster than I can keep up. SUCH a positive problem! :)
:::
I'm having one of those days where I feel like reaching out to all of my friends everywhere in the world and giving them a big hug, looking into their eyes and letting them know I'm so happy to know them and have them in my life. mmmooooiiii!!!!!
Have a great week everybody!
