grocery store blues.
I can't believe how sad it is to go to the grocery store now. I'm no longer buying for two, just for one. I have to debate getting the things I like because I know that most likely 1/2 the package is just going to go bad anyway because on my own I won't eat it fast enough. (and I hate wasting)
Everything reminds me of dinners at "our" little home... hot sauce, frozen pizzas, what kind of peanut butter each of us liked. Matt was/is a great cook (better than me) and the true tell-tale sign of that is that I actually don't even own any spices (except for one lonely bottle of red pepper flakes that are a must have on pasta). I mean, I know I am still building up my little home and such - but honestly I don't even really know which ones to buy! Nor, do I really have the interest or the energy to figure out what dish would enjoy having a spice added to it, let alone what kind. But this all exposes my lack of interest in cooking at all. There have been maybe a small handful of times I've gotten a kick out of cooking... besides that & left to my own devices I stick to the basics: grilled chicken, instant rice, mac & cheese, pasta. I need to figure out my wok (not the non-stick kind, but a real chinese wok) and then I'll be woking for sure... but not just yet. I actually have a few pots & pans yet to get, too. I have a lot of things to get still - I don't even have a teapot!
Anyway... the grocery store was sad tonite. I felt very single... not in a liberated way. But in a "wow, I wish I had someone around to eat the rest of these mushrooms before they go bad" kind of way. I actually long to have someone to shop for. I like shopping for "us". I like taking care of those things for "us". It's warm and homey and full of love and teamwork. I like that.
So now I'm home, drinking tea again. This time it's Ginger. I bought it tonite, but I don't really like it. Do you want it? Maybe I can take it back. It's official: I only like ginger on the side w/ my sushi. I'm not a fan of gingersnaps - and now I know - not ginger tea either.
Before I forget - I wanted to tell you I'm going to be moving this blog soon - over to blog.willotoons.com - as I'm going to try to revamp the portfolio/professional feel to this site. I've not been so concerned w/ potential clients till now - and who knows, maybe they don't care whats written here. But I figure it couldn't help to be more professional... so it's going to be a tad less front page - and have it's own little sub domain. I coulda gotten more creative with that name too I suppose. Just boring old blog. Calling a shoe by it's name - what's that saying? ANyway - *sigh* this is going to be moving soon. sooner than later. Sometime soon. Maybe tomorrow night.
Boy I'm getting good at rambling! I think to apologize for that - but hey, I'm enjoying it.
update: hahaa - how bout my guess there about the "shoe by it's name"? ...hilarious. As I'm sure most of you were mouthing in your minds, the saying is of course "call a spade ♠ a spade ♠" :) my friend elizabeth is good at helping me think those word things through. That's my right brain taking over when I can't think of how words come together to form a sensible sentence but I can feel what I'm trying to say and have it on the tip of my tongue! most often I just make up words :) that can be quite entertaining. If you hang around me you've heard me say more than once "but that's not a word, huh?" often I have to double check cuz at the time they sound perfectly right to me! (which also makes me think of sniglets and sarah (whom soon i'll be linking to cuz apparently she's putting together her very own blog) cuz she's way into something similar that new york times(?) does - some word contest that's similar to sniglets)
